Growth all around!

I can't believe how badly I neglected this blog again. I really do want to stay involved in updating it, but I'm not sure what to write about. I'm really just a mess trying to figure out what to do with myself. I'm trying to just relax and enjoy my pregnancy but I really need to get a full time job, which with me being 7 months pregnant, isn't really an easy thing to do. Plus, there really just aren't a ton of jobs floating around out there to get. I also want to take some classes in 2010 but then I start feeling like I'll have no time to spend with my baby or my horses. I don't know what to do really, so instead I keep pretending I don't need to look for a job. Yeah, not the best approach, but it stresses me out less.

Mostly, I've just felt really emotional lately. Go hormones! Its hard to make a post that can be read by anyone and avoiding the emotional stuff that wants to come out.

Anyway, I come bearing pictures! :)
I'm making this dress for my baby. Who, is a girl, and will be named Adria. Orion is getting so big and his color has really changed a lot!

I don't want to promise I'll keep posting, but darn it, I'm going to try really hard. I did a lot of work to build this blog. Way too much to just leave it like this!

Sorry its been so long!

So, I took more than an entire month off of blogging on here. I'm sure you may have noticed that, but still.

I needed an internet break. I'm still not sure what I'm doing for now. I've closed down my etsy (vacation mode) indefinitely and I am thinking about doing the same for my artfire, especially since I've only had one sale on there, and got screwed on the shipping...Moral of the story, I'm too nice to complete strangers. Basically it COST me money to send an item to someone. Yeah, I should have thought it through better, but I'm not thinking incredibly clearly with the pregnancy. So it may be best to close the listings on the Artfire for now too. I'm going to close down the website I was making. I don't have the time/desire to be online as much as I need to be to run my blog, Livejournal, update twitter, Tumblr, and check my facebook. Yeah, I'm sort of addicted.

I opened a Tumblr, by the way! I love using it, and using it sort of made me feel that I should stop neglecting this blog.

I AM going to redo my 101 things in 1001 days to-do list because so many of the goals just don't apply anymore. Things changed pretty hardcore in my life.
Speaking of...

I have to go pick up my Rebel from Best Buy, it needed to be fixed (something that my husband and I did to the poor thing over time). I haven't been doing much photography wise. I really like my Rebel, and since its been out of order, I haven't really felt like messing with the older Sony we have. We did get a new digital video camera that shoots amazing vids! And I'm getting a new computer, so hopefully I'll have more videos and pictures for you and I won't take another unannounced month and half long hiatus!

I'm so behind!

I hate that I have been so far behind on this blog. I'm trying really hard to get the stress out of my life.

Here are the two big things that are bothering me.
1-I really need to figure out what kind of career I want so that my husband can go to school full time at some point. I probably shouldn't worry about it so much right now, but it is really difficult.

2- my parent's might have to get rid of the two horses they still have. Hopefully Doug and I can still manage to take Blue, but I don't know with the kid and the other animals. But they have another horse who has arthritis and knee problems and really is pretty much green broke. I'm so scared she'll end up in a bad place. Most the horse sanctuaries and rescues are at capacity in Michigan. I don't know how to go about getting her a good home.

I'll stop with the worries.

I am visiting Michigan, that would be why I have another lack of posting going on here. I really do mean to step up the blogging soon. But I'm still up in the air about everything. I am feeling more and more like permanently closing my Etsy and Artfire accounts. I don't know, I just feel like I need to find a full time job and sort out my career and my horses more than anything right now. I don't have time for leather, and I have no real desire to do anything with it anymore.

I will be flying home from Michigan on Sunday, I will do my best to do more posting after that!

In which I talk about evertything.

I'm so behind in EVERYTHING! I need to take a lot of stuff off my plate but I don't know what! I'm working right now, which has left me beyond busy and I'm trying to finish blog giveaway prizes (gosh I'm so sorry), work the horses (I've been failing at that), and keep the house clean (also a fail). I did finish one keychain for the blog giveaway and the other is very close to being finished, probably in the next day or two. Then I just need to crochet the owl.

I've been meaning to post about this! My new blog banner was made by a friend of mine, Steph. You can find her at her livejournal. She does some great graphics work and also takes amazing photographs and is a talented artist. Horses are her favorite subject.

Also, someone asked after my last picture post what kind of horse Blue was and I didn't get back to you, I'm sorry! However, I thought I'd post it here so anyone wondering that can know. Blue is a Morgan/QH as far as we can tell. He is still hanging out at my parents' place and he's in his mid to upper 20s (best anyone can tell anyway). His teeth are excessively worn from windsucking for years, so its sort of hard to guess his exact age, even the dentist had to do an estimate.

Blue brings me to another thing. My dad is losing his job, which means they may not be able to keep Blue and Shasta (my mom's horse). It also means I'm not as likely to have an actual wedding reception as planned because we can't afford to pay for all of it and they were going to help out, but now they probably can't. I've been so stressed lately, which is horrible for me and probably the baby, but I don't know what else to do. I'm so exhausted that I'm having a hard time completing any task.

Can I fast forward until after the kid is born?

Old Gymkhana pictures

I'm having way too much fun digging through old pictures on my external hard drive. So, I give you some old pictures of my horses and I. These are 4-H, local gymkhana shows, and just, all sorts of fun stuff I miss doing!
I might keep posting old photos for a little while, so I can gather up NEW material to talk about. Then maybe I'll post more for awhile.

The picture above is my old horse Blue when I was in the 4-H junior mounted division and I got to carry the flag in the parade.

This is one of my favorite pictures. Yeah we're not fully in the frame, but its just so neat to see the speed and the flag stuck in the bucket. It was so hard to stick the flag with Thunder!
This picture was from when I was on the Junior Mounted Division which was through 4-H. We were carrying mail, in the brown saddle bag, in a relay. It was called the Pony Express.Titan running back after a decent pole pattern. I look SO tall in this picture. I'm not!
One of the first ties I ever let Titan go quickly through the pattern. He used to run so NICELY. What happened? haha.

I love this picture, the lighting is just SO pretty.

Some old kitten pictures :)

Last night Titan colicked fairly severely. I was very busy keeping him up and painless. It was caused by atmospheric pressure changes. Which, until now, I never knew happened. Weird.

Anyway, I meant to post really cute pictures of my cat Banjo as a kitten. I love the flashback of his kitten hood :).

Goals and goals aplenty.

I think maybe the 101 things in 1001 days needs to get changed a bit. There are so many things on that list that seem sort of, out of reach now. Is it wrong to change my goals? Personally, I think it isn't. Goals change! I shouldn't leave goals on there that I don't want to complete.

Anyway, we did give Apollo back to the woman we got him from, she said she'd find him a great home, thank goodness. I was so attached to the little bird already, and it was only a couple weeks. All the horses are staying for now. I may retrain Titan a little bit for dressage and English showing. He has a great foundation on him and rides beautifully in a snaffle, he also has lovely free-flowing movement and collects pretty well, so the training won't be too tough. He may get sold later as a dressage horse, but not for some time.

Everyone keeps telling me that when you get to the second trimester the serious lack of energy goes away and you feel better. I'd love that! I have noticed that I'm trying to fix the house up more and get everything ready.

In crafting news, I'm thinking more and more that I will get back into leather. I'm working on the keychains for the blog giveaway (I have one mostly done and the other is waiting on rhinestones). I guess I feel burned out because I have far too many hobbies. I don't have time for all of them, so I keep thinking I should cut something out. But then I realize, that I'm also not doing much most of the day right now, so really, maybe I just need to pick them back up when I can. Hopefully, I'll work everything out. I'm sick of worrying about everything! I know I shouldn't keep worrying, but its hard not to sometimes.

OK, enough of my rambling. I'll post some pictures at some point.